Stressed...

It's the weekend (almost!) and I am still trying to cross things off of my huge To Do list.  I get to teach tomorrow and as excited as I am to do that it is so stressful, until it's over that is.  Today has been none stop ALL day, I just got home after being kicked out of the Clarke for closing.  I still feel like I have so much to do for tomorrows lesson (when actually I most likely don't have that much but if you know me at all then you know that I am going to over thing EVERYTHING!) So I am just crossing my fingers that everything will go over well tomorrow.  My hardest thing is staying on schedule so thats my goal... I just hope I can do it! :)
Just about the only thing getting me through this weekend is knowing that I get to go home and spend time with my family!  My sister is having her baby boy on Sunday and so I just have to go down! :)  I am trying to get Babe to go with me but he is such a hard worker and doesn't want to get out of work on Saturday to go with me.  I hate being away from him but I need to go down every chance I can because I don't know when I will not be able to do that anymore.  Scary thought. As stupid as it sounds I am also really excited to go down so that I can help my other sister organize her office.  I LOVE organizing and so I talked her into letting me help her (like it was really that hard to talk someone into letting them clean your house...) I am also just excited to see her kids and spend some time with them.  It's going to be a gooood weekend! :)  I just hope I can make it that far!  If I can just get my mind to stop wandering so I can get some sleep then I think that will help.  But lets be real, like that will happen. Well I really should get back to work... So much to do in so little time!  Wish me luck!

Thankful for this boy tonight, he is such a blessing to me!

New Toy

My computer (or should I say babes computer I stole started to use) is finally pooping out on me.  Its not good when I need a computer everyday for class writing lesson plans, keeping records, making thing for lessons etc... It was being dumb last semester but now its hardly working.  I can't be on the internet for more than like 5 minutes without it freezing.  I can't do multiple things at once without it freezing... and it does really weird other stuff.  So long story short I am finally getting a new one.  We have been researching deals for a while now and babe didn't want me to get another PC because they poop out to much and he loves his Mac so he talked me into it.  I am not so excited to learn a whole new system and I am nervous about how it will work with the documents I already have... Well we found a good deal on a 2011 Macbook Pro basically brand new so we bought it.  I ended up with babe's old computer and he got the new one... not sure how that really happened but he says I won't even know the difference (minus the lighted keyboard :( which I wanted.)  But at least I can now do my homework in less time without having to take 15 minute breaks every 5 minutes to let my computer rest.  Wish me luck! :) 

School is...

School is:

Crazy busy.

Hard work.

Exciting.

Challenging.

Leading. 

Time consuming.

Adventurous.

Loads of homework.

Teaching. 

Spending time with friends.

Living in the Clarke.

Being in control.

Practicing to delegate.

Facing my fears.

Learning new things.

Asking questions.

Sleepless nights.

Headaches.

Funny.

A breath of fresh air.

Nerve racking.

Prioritizing.

Frustrating.

Early mornings.

Long days.

Lunch dates with Babe.

Confusing. 

Almost over!

This semester is crazy already.  I know what some of you might be thinking... "preschool? How hard is it to play with children all day?"  And all I have to say is, if you only knew!  It is way harder then I ever thought possible.  It's not like chemistry hard but more like figuring out immunization records (have you ever done that? NOT easy!)  Teaching children core skills that they need to develop in order to succeed  without them knowing that you are doing it. Planing 40+ activities a day that will entertain 20 children all at different stages and ages.  Try finding something to do for a young 3 year old to do that is also challenging for a advanced 5 year old.  Yeah, good luck! ;)   Oh and did I mention you spend about a month planning for 2 hours of class? And those are just my preschool classes (4 of those), not my special education class or observation and assessment class. I have found out new things about myself that I never knew before.  I get to spend everyday with all my preschool friends and amazing supervisors (we all get along sooo well and have SO much fun together.)  Class is just so much easier when you have friends with you, and amazing professors!  I love this school and I am blessed to go here.  I love starting every class day with a prayer (sometimes a song as well).  I love going to school with Matt and that he drops me off at my classes on the way to his. :) I love finding Babe on campus and walk around holding hands.  Life is just so much better with him by my side, it makes everyday seem a little better.

Tender Mercies

So I started school for the last first time today (hopefully, if I can get a class waved...) and boy does it feel good!  I couldn't even sleep last night because I was so excited, nervous, happy, sad, scared... ect.  I got really lucky last semester for preschool when I got put with 5 other girls.  We became instant friends, this semester it will take some more work but I am hoping it will be a good one.  And I'm the new supervisor so that brings on a lot of responsibility but I am excited for it.  We don't really ever have any of our professors in the class with us so really its all up to me, that's a lot of responsibility right there but if I can just get over some of my habits like having a hard time delegating or being afraid to tell other what to do I think I'll be fine.
Can I just say though the Lord knows me all to well.  He knows what is a challenge for me and how to help me over come it.  He knows that I need help in certain areas of my life that I am not really proud of.  He has a sense of humor and likes to joke with me sometimes.  He knows that I hate being alone in classes so he has blessed me with having at least 1 good friend in EVERY class I have which is a total blessing.  All in all the Lord knows me.  He knows you.  He is there for you and me if we just ask, and that my friends is just one of the many many tender mercies I can receive each day!

"We're Flexible"

"You just need to be flexible"  That's all they keep telling us but let me tell you its not that easy to "be flexible" when you have 3 pre plans, 2 lesson plans, and supposed to meet with your team for the 3rd lesson plan all due tomorrow.  Sorry its not going to happen.  They changed around all of our lesson plans and schedule in preschool, so what do I do?  I start to learn it, I'm flexible with all the changing.  But when you change it all again for the 2nd time after I already learned the new changed plan (make since?)  its a little hard to be so flexible.  Seriously I already have sooo much work to do without the extra stress that I am doing it all wrong and am going to have to re learn a whole new system...  Ugh.  Its not so easy having 3 different teachers to answer to with 3 different teaching styles.  Hopefully by my supervisor semester everything will be set in stone and I will already have it all down.  That's my wish I guess we will see if it ever comes true.  Until then thanks for the venting session!  Wish me luck this semesters going to be a loooong hard one!

School!

School starts for us tomorrow and we are soo excited! I have a time consuming work load but none of it is like Matt's classes so I am not going to complain to much. I am so excited to be going to school with Matt he has been working ever since we got married and mostly worked the semester we started dating so I never really got the chance to walk around campus holding hands, taking each other to class, eating lunch etc together.  It sounds really stupid as I write that down but its the truth, I was always so jealous that everyone had someone around with them and even though we were married I felt like the 3rd wheel but now that Matt wont be driving to SLC everyday we will have a lot more time together!
I can't remember if  I told you that we are both working for the SLC Express cleaning buses at night.  Matt got offered the job and his boss said that I could also work there, its a bummer to be at night but it will be fun to spend all our nights with each other!  Oh and Matt also just got a job with Madison School District as a backup school bus driver, they pay pretty good and it fits in between some of his random classes.  We were getting nervous about how we were going to make it all work this semester but this is just a small example of how much our Savior loves us and knows our needs.  Prayers work!  Well wish us luck, here's to another fun semester!!